It's been a good 4 months since my dearest father moved out from his human body, and I sense that I'm being asked to fill in a shoe that is so big, that I might take the rest of my life to figure out how to fill it.
My lovely wife and beautiful kids are the anchors on which I rest my tired shoulders', and head...and enter into a state of pure bliss.
It's time for me to take action on many things that I have left hanging in air since quite sometime. For a start God has given me yet another opportunity to 'do' what I should to the ailing and needing. I think I'm beginning to discover life yet again.
Though my wife thinks I overdo and feels envious of the time and energy I put in doing what I should do the 'needy'.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Visit to CMC, Vellore
Vellore, the city of 'spears' (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vellore), has a history of it's own and is world famous for it's 'Christian Medical College' (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christian_Medical_College). I wanted to take my 72 year old father for a second opinion. Dr. Raghavendra who is an accomplished Radiologist practices here for now, and I'm deeply grateful for his kind help. His parents are our tenants and that's how I know him. I am in awe for his humility and his orientation towards 'serving the sick', wish I could learn and do more.
Dr. Raghavendra and I strike a few similar wavelenghts on many topics and that's how I admire him. He went onto book an appointment for my father, got the patient card and ensured that we met Dr. Eapen the Hepatologist at CMC. Dr. Eapen was a balding middle aged gentleman with very kind eyes and long hands with a slendar body. He reached out to us when I was waiting for him to call out my father's name amongst the many who were waiting to be called in the 'Hepatology' department.
Hepatalogy (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hepatology) is that branch of medical science that deals with the study of the Li ver, Gall Bladder, Pancreas and Biliary tree-it's disorders and their management.
Dr. Eapen saw my father and asked me whether my father knew what he had, and I responded affirmatively. He called my father to sit down and I could see 'fear' in my father's eyes when he met the doctor.
The kind doctor explained what he thought of my father's situation and opined that a Liver Transplant was something that he'd not advice, as the risk's were outweighing the benefits.
My father's eye's sunk further into their orbits and I was feeling helpless and almost wanted to reach out and hug my father, but couldn't.
The doctor asked us to get in touch with an Oncologist (Oncology: The study of Cancer-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oncology).
We left with Vellore with mixed feelings and soon over came it with a good lunch at 'Hotel Shalini'.
With full stomach's we were on our way towards Bengaluru, with my 'Srinath' my cousin at the wheel and I beside him struggling to keep my eyes open.
Dr. Raghavendra and I strike a few similar wavelenghts on many topics and that's how I admire him. He went onto book an appointment for my father, got the patient card and ensured that we met Dr. Eapen the Hepatologist at CMC. Dr. Eapen was a balding middle aged gentleman with very kind eyes and long hands with a slendar body. He reached out to us when I was waiting for him to call out my father's name amongst the many who were waiting to be called in the 'Hepatology' department.
Hepatalogy (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hepatology) is that branch of medical science that deals with the study of the Li ver, Gall Bladder, Pancreas and Biliary tree-it's disorders and their management.
Dr. Eapen saw my father and asked me whether my father knew what he had, and I responded affirmatively. He called my father to sit down and I could see 'fear' in my father's eyes when he met the doctor.
The kind doctor explained what he thought of my father's situation and opined that a Liver Transplant was something that he'd not advice, as the risk's were outweighing the benefits.
My father's eye's sunk further into their orbits and I was feeling helpless and almost wanted to reach out and hug my father, but couldn't.
The doctor asked us to get in touch with an Oncologist (Oncology: The study of Cancer-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oncology).
We left with Vellore with mixed feelings and soon over came it with a good lunch at 'Hotel Shalini'.
With full stomach's we were on our way towards Bengaluru, with my 'Srinath' my cousin at the wheel and I beside him struggling to keep my eyes open.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Yet (i) again.
Alright....I've been at it again...as I promised from my last blog.......
The evolution of 'my perfect blog' continues at a pretty pace today. One of the meetings that was supposed to have been there, got junked coz the folks in the Sr. Management decided to 'ignore', and this was perfect reason for me to start tweaking my little hobby for now :)....
So, how does this look for a change?
another day in March
So...yes...I've started blogging and this time it's fresh and with an objective. The objective of doing 'my bit' for Liver Cancer.
Today I undid what I did yesterday, and I did what so many millions would have done :)
Yea....re-built the template and I think this process will continue till such time, when I realize...I've realized how to build meaningful and blog's with an objective.
So my friend who is reading today, do share your wisdom and humour me by posting your comment.
Adios till we meet next.
-Sri
Monday, March 23, 2009
Moving ahead - the month of 'March'.
This has been an extremely testy year for me so far.....
Paradoxical situations on the personal and professional front, opportunities to grow disguised in veiled challenges often meeting me in a corner of my psychological positive state didn't catch me unawares, but did unravel my state as I have rarely seen it.
Guess the chronological state of my brain has overtaken it's physiological state in some sense. Well that's enuf of abstract for the moment.....
With my dad's health catching up on him, through a malignant leision in his liver....this has become the state of discussion, thought, action over the past few months, since it was discovered last Dec. My intuition which I stoickly believe in has been masked by my emotions which has thrown my logic 'out of gear'.
Need to work with myself more strongly to take the situations presented 'head on' to move on...The month of March calls for 'moving on'.
Paradoxical situations on the personal and professional front, opportunities to grow disguised in veiled challenges often meeting me in a corner of my psychological positive state didn't catch me unawares, but did unravel my state as I have rarely seen it.
Guess the chronological state of my brain has overtaken it's physiological state in some sense. Well that's enuf of abstract for the moment.....
With my dad's health catching up on him, through a malignant leision in his liver....this has become the state of discussion, thought, action over the past few months, since it was discovered last Dec. My intuition which I stoickly believe in has been masked by my emotions which has thrown my logic 'out of gear'.
Need to work with myself more strongly to take the situations presented 'head on' to move on...The month of March calls for 'moving on'.
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